I think I have self worth. I think I am innately worthy.

But I also know pretty well what I am good and bad at.

Like I'm good at language
I'm bad at math
I read well silently
I have huge issues reading aloud
I am a good friend
I am easy to misunderstand if you don't know me
I'm good at caring for my pets
I'm bad at cleaning my apartment and do dishes

For me these are just facts. They don't have much emotion attached to them. I sometimes find pleasure in something I did well or feel bad about something others can do better than me.

But all this is connected with reality. So I don't seem to have self esteem at all, not good nor bad.

Wiki explains it is the belief you are good or bad at something. I don't believe, I know facts. Is good and bad self esteem some kind of delusion then? A strong feeling you THINK you are so TERRIFIC at something (and you might not be) or you THINK you are so BAD at something (and you might be OK at it really)?

Is self esteem just some mood thing with some delusions tossed in?

I've always wondered what people meant when they said it.