Have you thought about going to NA(narcotics Anonymous) ? They understand about the need for psychiatric meds(unlike AA which often tells people to quit everything but coffee and cigs) but would encourage you to be truthful with your Pdocs. Come on, you know you have a problem but you didn't mention it cause you knew they'd cut you off. My advice, work on the honesty and tell the pdoc you need to be weaned off and work with them to find the best treatment for you.