Well you are all right. I should have just relaxed a bit. I did tell him what has been happening and he is going to try to fit me in twice next week.

He didn't get my first message because his office manager didn't recognize my voice (it was way too early in the morning for me). I'm sure I was whispering...

Anyway, he was funny explaining how he played the message over and over listening for a name he never got. T did call back so that is enough for me.

I mentioned my follow up appt. with my p-doc. I thought she would've called him because I was clearly losing it. Well, she didn't so that is good. I don't usually say much to her so when I started with all the 'can I be an unfit mom if I'm over-scheduled" routine, she looked concerned but I couldn't read it so there is no point in analyzing that.

We ended up having a good session. I definitely need to see him more often. I didn't get a chance to tell him tonight that I'm getting some impulsive urges and have already done some shopping and some other things are brewing...

I also meant to ask him if I can contact him some other way when I have moments like that. I don't always feel comfortable telling the office manager exactly why I want to talk to T.

There must be another way to do this. I wouldn't abuse it but I'm not sure if he does that with other clients or not.

I think I can sleep better tonight now. Thanks everyone for letting me vent once again...