At least your therapist tolerates it at all. i started therapy for the first time about 2 months ago. my T said I can't do it at all, cause if I do she'll put me in a hospital. Yesterday she made me show her my arms- i got caught. Now I have to be careful b/c i'm terrified if i get caught again i'll be hospitalized. She doesn't understand you can't just up and quit. She has like zero tolerance- I hope I don't get hospitalized! Don't cut your arms.