Honestly, for as long as I can remember, I've been pretty shaky in the self-esteem department. I remember as a kid, I used to apologize even when I didn't need to (and I still have that habit; it's something that one of my therapists -- a group therapist, to be more precise -- is trying to break me out of), I was diagnosed by a psychologist as being a people-pleaser, and I always felt different. I had a learning disability when I was a kid that made it hard to concentrate and stay focused, and I still kind of struggle with that now. And I also occasionally have problems trusting my own opinions, my own judgment, and I tend to beat myself up a lot -- thinking I'm a bad person, things like that.

Maybe it's time to change that, though. And hopefully I can find a way to fix it, because I know I'm tired of falling into the same patterns over and over again.