I wrote a couple of weeks ago about the rape that occurred when I was in the military. This event was traumatic and has haunted me for 31 years, because i felt it was my fault and my sin that led to it. It was an acquaintance rape, which felt like it was even more my fault.
Since that time I have struggled with depression and alcoholism. I have been angry and filled with self loathing.
But, I have recently had an attitude change. I know that not everyone here is a believer, but I realized that God had forgiven me for the choices I made that night. Therefore, I had to forgive myself. I think i have finally done that. I am still an alcoholic and that battle is still ongoing, but I realize that that label doesn't define me. I am still me. I am loved!