-Can't remember the last time I was genuinely all-around happy and free of anxiety and worries
-Constantly going over things in my mind I have done in the past I feel ashamed of or that I have handled poorly and just feel guilty and like a failure with the whole exercise being pointless ofc
-Constantly worrying about future appointments (especially work-related) that I don't know how to handle and feel like I will fail miserably
-Poly substance abuser
-Haven't had a shag in about 6 years and that time was miserable
-Currently got a sick slip from my doc for the 6th time in a row (making me absent from work for about 6 weeks now but living in Germany and working for the type of company I have some wiggle room before things get really serious)
-Started self-medicating SSRIs (Fluoextine) in the hopes it'll give me enough energy to kick my substance abuse habit along with some perspective on live and ultimately make me feel happy (can't get a regular script due to the fact that I divulged the kinds of substances I (ab)use to my doctor who isn't willing to prescribe the SSRI on liability grounds on the off-chance I might die due to respiratory-failure because of the additive CNS effects of the substance I use; lucky me I earn well and can afford to pursue different avenues to procure the meds)
- the list goes on believe you me...