Dear T,
It really upset me that you brought up hospitalization today. I had all this stuff I wanted to talk to you about before you went on vacation next week, and I had to spend most of the session defending why I didn't want to or need to be in the hospital right now. I want to try a different medication, but I'll talk to p-doc about that on Thursday. I just feel really awful now, like you don't believe in me. I know it's just you trying to help or whatever. But it would have been nice if you hadn't gotten me 15 minutes late, then basically threw me out after 45 minutes--yeah, you had another client, but I was all upset, and you were just like "We have to stop." It just seemed kind of cold. You didn't even touch me on the arm or anything, like you have lately. Maybe you're just sick of me, I don't know.

Right now, I'm like, maybe I need to see someone different. Maybe if I'm not all better after 4.5 years, I need someone with a different approach. I'd give almost anything to have MC as my individual T, and I'm sure you know that, because his approach just resonates with me more. And he wouldn't have kicked me out right at 45 minutes. Yeah, he's often late to get his clients, but I can live with that because he gives us extra time when we need it. I know that's not possible (at least not right now), but maybe one of the other T's in the practice has a style more like his?

I know I'm probably overreacting. Which is why I'm posting this here instead of e-mailing you. Because I don't want to say something I'll regret...