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Originally Posted by Ghost5
I know this sounds strange and I'm not sure If it's my depression causing it or not but I feel like I'm dying. I'm 37 years old but mentally I feel like I'm 80. I feel like I've lived my life and there's nothing left for me in the world, I'm an old person and have had enough. I go over the years I've lived in my head (almost like flashbacks) and what I could've done differently and feel I've not got much longer left to live, I look back with sadness missing what I once had. I almost feel like my body and brain and shutting down and preparing to die, and I don't really care?
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That is pretty typical of depression. Depression is a here and now thing but it also affects the way you see the future and even the way you view the past.
At some point in in life death becomes less of an abstract and we realize that we are not going to be the first exception to the everyone dies rules. But nobody really knows when they will die. I hope you feel more positive soon.