Hello T,

So...I sent you that email. I've written several emails in the past few weeks, but I didn't sent them. I sent this one. I was in a very bad and low mood. I felt terrible. Sad. Anxious. Mad. Lonely. Hurt. Hopeless. Pain. Crying. I wrote and send it out of anger, depression, hopelessness. It was dumb. I think.
I told you I quit. I've never really said that to you. I've thought it a lot of times. But I've that with every therapy. How many times where there that I was sure I would quit pdoc.
How wil you react? It's a bit of an angry mail. It isn't long. I've written last week about my feelings and also angry feelings. But that was more discribing how I felt. This one is... I think I'm expressing my anger towards you.
Maybe that one comment was a bit too not right? Suggesting I should study psychology so I can learn to be without emotion when hearing difficult stuff and so I won't think about T's so much except on the day of the session.
I was a bit b*tchy.

I kind of want you to not let me quit. I want to know if you care about me. I want to know if I mean something to you, that I'm not just a part of your paycheck.
I just want to know if I matter to you.