The past few weeks, especially the past few days, I've been feeling really invisible. Mostly, if not all my fault, though that doesn't help the feeling lessen. I've been going to group therapy for a year, and the last few weeks the T has switched the routine, so it's no longer "checking in" with each person, but more of going over a stupid packet and having a discussion about it. Anyway, this change plus my anxiety makes me not have said ANYTHING in the group for the past 3 weeks. No one mentions anything, not even the T. Which she's probably respecting my feelings, but I went to group for the extra support I'd get by checking in. I feel like I'm not noticed, I go in and leave without anyone saying a thing to me the last few weeks.

Then today after group, I had a doctor's appointment with my dr that I've been seeing for the past 7 years and she's very familiar with me. The waiting got to be too much, so I left without even seeing her. I just sat in the room waiting for 30 minutes. I guess I expected a call to at least reschedule or something, but nothing.

I know it's more than that. I just wish someone would ask me how I feel and actually give a damn. I know I'm over reacting about everything. I'm angry and hurt about everything. I don't know why I'm bothering lately.