It is never late to change Macd123. I know it is hard, but it is not impossible. I am sure outer things will change, once inner change takes place. People with hopeless terminal illnesses fight fiercely their illness until the last moment. Life is worth fighting for. Roll up your sleeves and fight your battles, until you win your war.

We have a saying in my language which says "the door through which the (cold) wind blows, close it, and rest". If she brings you anxiety and depression, you don't need that. Free yourself for better. It is my opinion.