I came across this forum when I was feeling completely alone in my mental illness. I needed to be able to discuss ha.ving bipolar disorder and also abusing alcohol. Today I am 133 days sober but at times my bipolar/anxiety/depression keeps me trapped in my house. Ughhh, It can really suck. Tonight I was going to go to an AA meeting but I could not imagine putting on my clothes and leaving my house. It was overwhelmingly difficult and at times I feel like I may be the only person that has a sponsor in AA but at times if I'm too depressed I even stop communicating with her. I really like AA and the meetings but at times I feel alone there, just knowing I will miss meetings and not follow through with things because a lot of times I just can't. Soooo, I'm glad to be here with all of you.