I hear you. Sometimes I get mired down with wondering what on earth I did to have to slog through so much and ugh, WHY ME? I can feel that way even when I know there are good things, even great things, going on in my life, that I can and do appreciate. It's like my brain gets stuck in a negative rut.

I wish I had some wise words to share with you about how I wring myself out of the rut, but I haven't quite figured it out despite reflection and acknowledging that some of my own lousy choices contributed to the crummy parts of my life. Like, hey, I know how this happened, I know my mistakes and own my actions, and I'm working to fix it, but DANG, can I catch a break here PLEASE? So maybe it will help just to know that someone read your message and can relate. You're definitely not alone.