Yeah I'm aware I could be her grandparent but that still doesn't eliminate the fact that I developed real feelings for her. Maybe it's my lack of experience but that's the way it is. What I don't like is the withdrawl symptoms I have to go through to get her out of my system. I would prefer not to have to have sleepless nights at this point in my life. Maybe she wasn't interested but I sure looked forward to our talks. I'm also very envious of the guy she's now with - I don't know him but I can't get that picture out of my head of them together. You probably know the drill (drill is a good word for it) if you've ever been in an unrequited love situation. The idea that she would find a relationship with me repulsive doesn't really make this any easier. I probably know why I grow attached to young women (aside from primal instincts) I am truly saddened by the fact that I didn't have a torrid love affair when I was younger. This is something I'm never going to have and I might never get to a point where I can accept it. Well I just got to suck it up again and I hate it. I do know that time usually lessens the wound. So now I just gotta wait. Thanks everyone!