Thank you all for your support. I've looked up burnout & some of the other signs that are mentioned I do get too, so it could be that. I've been working long hours to get things done on time, but some of that is caused by not getting things done as I used to. I am going to try literally doing a list a try & do at least one of the nagging things, like making the appointments, each day. Maybe that'll bring some comfort.

The crying, I've been trying to remember whether that was a pre last depression thing or not. I think I did cry before, but more behind closed doors...in bed at night on my own, so no one knew. I feel less able to hold them back these days. I can hold it, but not as easily and sometimes not at all.

Thank you for your suggestions and letting me try and logically work through things. It really helps me.