Pdoc #1:
I have been on 200 mg of Lamotrigine for years without side effects.
Also Trazodone 100-150 mg and Xanax around 1 mg.
But now, I'm deeply depressed.
Pdoc's #1 way to rid me of my depression, is Adderall.
I take 2.5 mg when I really need to get out of the house,
but I can't stand the crashes.
Pdoc #2:
Lithium 900 mg. No Xanax, no Adderall and no Lamotrigine.
I'm taking the Lithium, I'm also taking the Lamotrigine @ 150 mg now.
Don't know if she's going to like that. This is a semi-government place.
Hence the non benzo policy. I feel she will put me in SSRIs which I don't want.

I moved to a different town 200 miles away from Pdoc #1.
but I can make an appointment any time I want.

Pdoc #2 is in this town, but will only see me once every 3 months.
From what I read, I need to have blood tests for Lithium more frequently.
My last test was a few days ago @ 600 mg when ramping up.

I'm totally lost about this situation and going thru the motions, which may not be in my best interest. What do you think?.
Please, don't hesitate to give me your input. I may or may not do what you opine, so you have anything to worry about.

This is very very important to me. It's my sanity and the little future I may have left. Thank you for reading.