Patagonia, thanks for sharing your experience. I could tell you a lot about her, even we are having this affair for only a month now. She is a Muslim, what I don't like, but she never speaks about it. You're right, this leads into a normal relationship but we both know that she can't leave her son and his biological father and her huge family. She won't make those huge changes that's for sure. But I also told her that we should our relationship give boundaries and real definition cause without these someone will eventually get hurt really bad.
If you ask about my serious feelings about her, I don't know cause she talks so little about herself, her husband and her history, so I really don't know her real character. All I know that it feels good being around her and I miss her today.
I don't know why the feelings becoming stronger when we both know how limited our relationship can grow. When I ask her and tell her that it's painful not being allowed having plans for future with her (cause I am single), she say 'lets just enjoy while it lasts'. Damn. I need to build something in a relationship and on the other side she cannot build anything.
I saw her pictures of her family and it is so perfect. I just wonder why is she doing this with me, there must be some problem in her marriage...
PsychNitrous I can feel your words how more fulfilling relationship is between two single people.