I have recognized a pattern in myself of feeling incredibly triggered by where other people are in their recovery journeys. If someone is ahead of me, I find it incredibly inspiring. If someone is not as far along in recovery as I am and is struggling, I find it triggering to the point of a total breakdown. Does anyone else get this way or is it just me??

Like if someone came into group crying about having relapsed in self harm or something, and I was having a good day prior to that, I would take on their **** as my own. I would then have a sinking feeling in my gut and feel the need to self harm. Kind of like I reflect what I see, involuntarily. I honestly can't find a way to shake it, but I do recognize it as a problem and I recognize it as what is hindering me from a full recovery.