What do I do?


Everything I can think of, and then some. If I run out of ideas for coping skills, I ask a friend. I'm currently seeing a T and attend weekly DBT, so that helps alot.


If all else fails, I just allow myself to fall apart. Sometimes the only way back up is to start from zero.


Most troublesome, well that's complicated....


Depression hits me the hardest, but my warped BPD thought patterns bother me most often.

I always have to be on guard for them and I've become very good at countering bad thoughts with good ones. Sort of like trying to override my brain's default setting.


If depression kick starts my mental negativity engine, which then revs up my obsessive thoughts / imagery, that's when my BPD kicks into full gear and I feel nuttier than a damn fruit loop!


I'm very self aware though, so alot of the time I can untangle what's happening and deal with the actual issue before it sets off the aforementioned chain reaction.


For the BP I have safety nets and a support structure in place, for the BPD I have reality checks available by either a very close friend, my bf or my BPD evidence box. ( tangible stuff I can see and touch that counters the negativity in my head)


If all else fails and my brain threatens to explode I am a firm believer in the reboot method.


A mini coma and my brain has time to reset. Doesn't solve my problems, but helps me see things more rationally.


I'm not against meds though, PRN would suit me, but hard to find a free state pdoc willing to go that route.