I had a very intense attachment to my therapist that, ultimately, caused me to terminate her. I was SO done with those feelings - you described them as I felt them. Then throw in some maternal erotic transference that we could not work through and I simply couldn't do it anymore. Took about 6 weeks for it to resolve, now I still love her but it's more fond feelings than intense painful longings.
I could email, call and text her. Just brief responses that she told me ahead of time.

What I wanted was a good mom, took me over 5 years that a psychoanalyst wasn't going to be that.

But my point is, I got over her, but, for me, I had to get away from her to do it.

I really feel your pain and am very sorry you're in it. It's really hard.