I am feeling two finds of anxiety build up rather quickly in my this afternoon. One is the same and guilt of letting my house get so cluttered over the years and now having to face it since we are moving. All I want to do today is 20 minutes in our room and I feel so overwhelmed and almost frozen from it all. I am also feeling health anxiety, my health isn't good and there are issues to be worried over but today I am having a high level of pain day and my mind keeps worrying that something really bad is about to happen. I have SLE, SLE related kidney issues, and SLE related clotting disorder and usually when I get worried I easily calm myself down by reminding myself that I have a top notch medical team, and I do, but two of the doctors retired this week kinda out of the blue so that has sent me into a tail spin. I move in 3 months and will need to build a new team which won't be easy as it took 8 years to build my current one. So I think all of that mixed in with the pain levels is really increasing my anxiety levels today.