So, last Tues I saw my therapist. She told me I needed to call my pdoc or she would. She told me that no one should have to suffer so much and that there are always new meds to at least try or meds that can be increased. She said that is his purpose.

So, I left her off office last Tues and called my pdoc immediately after. It was around 11:30 when I called and left a msg with a person. I was told my pdoc would call me back. I called again at 4:30 knowing the office would close around 5 just to make sure he got the msg. The person on the phone acted surprised that he hadn't called me back but said he was having a late night and would call me later that night. *crickets,* no phone call.

In the meantime, I called to refill my prescription for Zoloft and the pharmacist said she couldn't fill it without permission because of a moderate drug interaction. The pharmacist called me back and advised me that my pdoc said not to refill it. Ok.

I call his office the next afternoon a couple of times...no answer. I left a vm; still no returned call. *crickets again*

Finally, on Thurs I texted him and said (paraphrasing) I am feeling very suicidal and I've been trying to reach you since Tues. If I can't take Zoloft, what can we do?

He actually called back! He asked me if I had ever tried Lexapro. I told him no and he said it was a great med that would have no negative interactions with the meds I am taking. He said he would call it in right away. No apology. I called the pharmasict that evening and sure enough, my pdoc had called it in. However, they couldn't fill the prescription due to a moderate drug interaction. She said they had left a msg for him to call back. Thank God for this pharmacist!

Well, after the call from the pharmacist, *crickets* *crickets* *more crickets.* No calls to me; no calls to the pharmacist.

So, today, 8 days later, I saw my therapist again. I told her that I had simply shut down that avenue of relief because my pdoc has obviously dropped the ball numerous times. She told me she was going to call him and did so right then. The answering machine picked up, no person. Let me just tell you, she schooled him in that msg. It was long and it was confrontational. It was entirely wonderful. That she took up for me so much made me feel so loved! She told me she will find a list of pdocs to try when I have better insurance. I just wish I could hear their conversation if there is one. She didn't say she would call me but I think she probably will.