Thank you to the people who had kind words and faith in me. It seems others disagree with how I'm doing this or blame me for it. First off, not every program works for every person. And IP doesn't have medical equipment (iv's, monitors, rapid detox, ect) that I'd agree too. And IP never helped me at all. I seem to be getting PMs of people doubting me and saying I'm lying to myself. How much more freaking honest can I get on here?! I have nothing to hide!

May I remind you that many of us with BP or BPD have turned to substances from time to time? It's quite common? I'm not making excuses for anyone but I'm just saying, if you've been where I am right now, why are you being negative towards me when I've been nothing but honest?

I'm at rock bottom and going to be having the sickest week of my life, physically and mentally and the last thing I need is doubters.

I'm being honest to everyone here and honest to my doctors. They are aware I'm doing this at home and are ok with it.

Trileptal 600mg BID
Buspar 45mg
Seroquel 150-300mg for sleep
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvanse 70mg
Risperdal 4-6mg PRN

I don't get msgs unless the other person using tapatalk app!