Quote:
Originally Posted by Nammu
Maybe it's because some of us have been there and know the BS the brain can manipulate us with by manufacturing excuse after excuse. Its not a judgement on you. Its the games the doped up brain play. Like thinking its better to detox at home than under supervision because, this, that, and the other thing but its really about not wanting to give up control. Like everyone in the world doesn't understand, that it's you vs the world, in NA its known as pity pot talk.
|
Call it what you want. Think of me as you wish. I'm at rock bottom and there's no more excuses I could possibly pull out of my *** at this point. They can call it what they want in NA too. NA,AA, ect was never my thing. Once again, I rather do this first, get my head and system cleaned before I go back to psych meds because I want my body to respond correctly for once. The place they were offering (prob cuz my bad insurance) was a cold hard bed and pdocs that don't take into consideration what may already be in my system and start piling on meds without taking the time to see if they're even working and just push me out the door. It didn't work the first 3 times so why would I waste my time again? My doctors and case worker all looked over my meds and agreed that I can do it at home. I show up next wk with a clean system to try new meds because that is what they want. I don't know how many more times I have to explain this.
Detoxing at home from all psych meds at the moment because of self admitted abuse. Doctors orders and then new cocktail. Just being honest.
I don't get msgs unless the other person using tapatalk app!