Small Update: Had session this afternoon and put everything out there. Without going into detail, he said he wasn't feeling annoyed or anything negative just that it seemed like the session had come to a natural close and he gave me the option to stay if I wanted. We also talked about how to reduce the volatile nature of our sessions and while we didn't come to a clear conclusion/answer--I feel so much better that it's out there to be worked on and that we have a good idea of why our sessions swing from being really good to really bad. Overall, feeling closer to T and feeling like our relationship is changing which is exciting and scary