I'm just sick to my stomach. I can't believe the way he treated me today. It's so surreal. I just get the feeling he gave up truly treating me since I have medicaid. He has been so adamant about me losing weight over the years I have seen him I thought he would be ecstatic and ready to do anything to help now that I AM ready. Instead he mocked me gave me a script for a cholesterol medication and walked out. I'm so sick. I wanna die. I feel like a piece of s***. What happened? Why wouldn't he help me? What's wrong? He didn't even call today after I called and said I would never be back. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do.

I'm talking to a friend tomorrow about weight watchers but that is for people who still feel they have some control over their eating...I don't. I gotta try something. I don't know what to do though...thats why I went to my doctor.