Despite being bipolar, I am very, very shy. I had a fun circle of friends for awhile last year, but for a bunch of reasons everyone went their own way. So my social circle keeps shrinking and shrinking. I can be awkward, emotionally reactive, and prone to flight (as in fight or flight). I hate meeting new people and have a ton of issues making friends.
But I have been really unhappy with almost no one to do anything with and am really lonely. I was so lonely I started crying at my desk at work today.
So I decided I have to do something. There is a game store in my town where you can go and play tabletop games for free. I really want to go tonight. I am terrified though. What if I say something off and everyone thinks I am strange? If I feel I have messed up, I won't go back.
I have wanted to go for months but I keep losing my nerve.
Any thoughts?
Support?