SoupDragon-yes, his response was terrible and unprofessional, and he did not respond to me like a therapist, but like you said, he is human and so will make mistakes. So I wonder if he is very rejection sensitive and just didn't hold back. I still have really affectionate feelings for him, and I care about him. I know this all probably doesn't seem like the end of the world to people, but it really does feel devastating. It did make me relive some trauma-I've been having odd dissociative symptoms.

missbella - i'm really sorry that happened to you. That was so mean of them! I'm really glad you found a way to deal with it.

Rose76 - that's the part that makes me angry-his not taking any responsibility for the failed therapy. I don't believe, by any means, it's all him, but we always argue because he thinks everything is transference. In the end, it is so hurtful.

Thank you, precarious. I do think I can forgive him though. I just am not sure if we ever could work together after this. I'd always be wondering in the back of my mind if he thinks of me in all the negative ways he mentioned.

He is not a bad person, and this bad doesn't erase the good there was, but I still am shocked at his behavior. We are supposed to meet next week. I'm not sure if it will make things better or worse. I am a little better tonight, and am not sure what to do. I don't want to end like this, but then again--will next time be worse?