Thank you so much for the helpful reply! I am glad it worked out well for you and hope that it does for me as well. My transference is a little different. Mine is more "erotic transference". I'm pretty sure that's what the transference is called when it feels romantic in nature? However, it also feels like I just want him in my life. Just as a friend. I know there are strict boundaries against this. That is another reason why I struggle so much with this. I learned about transference back when I was in school for psychology and as a student would think to myself "That's ridiculous. How could someone mistake a professional's caring responsibility towards their client as true, loving feelings?". I honestly did not think this would ever happen to me. It has come as a little bit of a shock since logically I know I am being ridiculous, but my emotions are telling me something else? It also worried me that I may have some underlying relationship based issues that I never even knew existed. That makes me extremely anxious and embarrassed to admit. I do not like feeling vulnerable and I don't want my therapist to think I have real affection towards him or that I need to depend on him. That makes me feel pathetic. I don't know why that the word I chose to describe how I'm feeling because it's such an ugly word but that is how I feel.