I'm so sorry what you're going through. I haven't been able to read every post in the thread I'm sorry. I admire your honesty. I don't admire people talking down to you. And na aa is NOT the answer for everybody. When I hear someone defend it so I think they're brainwashed. Sponsors with no credentials in mental health give advice, Is not ok and it's dangerous.
I quit adderall last year, (and all meds), it was making me mood cycle. I was so scared and upset about quitting it because I believed it was the only reason I'd kept my job. But it was not as bad as I thought it would be. I was ok and you will be too. You are allowed toale your own decisions for your body. I think it will be good for the pdoc to get a fresher start with seeing how you are on less meds, then slowly add some back in.
I wish you could just be taking a disability leave rather than losing your job. I may have missed something but isn't that illegal against ADA?