I often want my therapist to be more in my life. A friend or a parent. I am learning and starting to accept the role she has and be happy with it. I honestly want her more as a therapist than a friend. The client/therapist relationship is so special and different from other relationships. Your feelings are normal. Hopefully you can get to the route cause of your transference. It is very hard to be vulnerable but its worth it for the healing it provides. I really hope things work out for you!