Dear uni therapist,

A wave of deep and profound shame has just hit me. I feel ashamed about everything. All of it. The crazy breakdowns, the multiple emails saying I was going to quit, the anger, the distrust, tearing myself to pieces over how much I want to keep you forever, knowing I can't, and then breaking down all over again. I feel ashamed of myself for crying last week, for letting you see me that way, for not being able to hold myself together. I feel ashamed about my inability to do my coursework, how the very idea is traumatising to me. I'm hopeless. I can't function. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just be an adult?

See you in five and a half hours.