I didn't want to sack you, I do want to continue so so much. But can't you see how terrifying that place is for me now? It was my safe place, and that's been destroyed. Day or night doesn't matter- neither is safe. I love ecotherapy, but you need to build a people and animal and weather proof treehouse or something! Is there nowhere more isolated?

I've somehow made it to day five. It's getting harder as I'm not sleeping at all. Am fighting every urge in me to go smoke anything that will stop my head spinning. It's a shame I'll never get to tell you about this week- I think you would proud.