So sorry to hear this & you do not deserve to be pulled over the coals over this. I'm sure you know more than any of us that you probably need to stop self medicating to get your moods stable but being in a similar position to you (as far as I could know based on your threads & stuff), I know how hard it is to access proper treatment, not a bunch of residents in public IP in **** conditions. I also get the whole non supportive family too, mine either don't know or don't believe I could possibly have a psychiatric dx, let alone 2.

Sending peace & love