I understand why you want to stay home. I support you in whatever decision you make. But I have to tell you that having just come off of a bunch of Seroquel I know that I could not have done it (probably still am doing it since it's only been a few days since I stopped) without being in the hospital.


I don't mean to tell you what to do but this is what happened for me:


For this kind of situation in my hospital things are different than usual. I did groups until I got too bad and then I tried but was not expected to attend. It took about a week to get to group and stay there after the withdrawl of Seroquel started. They were really great about getting anxiety meds (non benzo) as high as I needed, both routine and PRNs. They gave me stuff to keep me sleeping and emphasized that I was to sleep, whatever meds it took from my PRN supply.


They dealt with my paranoia, agitation, rudeness, tears and general mood swings. They were proud for me when I made baby steps and it helped me see those baby steps. When they realized I didn't qualify for a single room b/c of my suicide risk they kept me in a double but kept the bed empty because having a roommate made things harder.


The whole thing was well, I can't describe all the things I felt. Suffice it to say that I spent a few days curled up in bed except for putting in earplugs and going to meals.Later I spent a bit less time doing that but when I wasn't in a group I was sleepig. But it took a long time to tweak meds to make me sleepy and yet able to be awake; they didn't want me ot be very energetic for a few days and then they let me gradually start doing little things. I wasn't confined to my room, I realized it sounds like that, I just had ot be there to avoid the noise. I could even hear the next unit because I had such bad hyperacuity.


Mostly I was safe. There were days that if the wrong item had fallen into my hands I would happily have been done with it. But of course that doesn't happen and now I don't feel that way so much.


Coming off meds is really hard. Even if there aren't other drugs to get off of. I would not EVER consider doing what I did in the last 2 weeks \anywhere but in a hospital. I hate being there but it got me through this.


Do you live near a city? Usually hospitals that train a lot of residents have nicer facilities.