I guess I feel less angry than just "buyer beware." It's unrealistic to assume that any industry or proprietor of an industry is genuinely empowered to deliver altruistic solutions, and that certainly includes the psych and medical professions. Just because their products have the potential to be helpful, is no reason to assume that they always will be, that they will always be delivered effectively or responsibly. As an analogy, milk may be generally healthy for most people to drink or for certain people to drink, but even then you're a lot more likely not to get poisoned if you buy it from a store that consistently stores it at the right temperature, and which purchased it from a supplier which stores it at the right temperature, which gets it from a producer that doesn't use dangerous chemicals, etc. etc. It's not as though one can say "milk is great, no need for we consumers to review the processes behind it" and drink any old glass of it that one comes across. With all the potential for injury that inherently exists via delivery of medical and psych industries, I think it is imperative that consumers be empowered to educate themselves, and to be wholly and respectfully involved in the decision-making process.

I do wish I had never as blindly believed in an altruism inherent to the industry, that I hadn't walked in with my heart on my sleeve, my critical thinking disabled, trusting psych professionals to simply "know better" (as they seemed so sure that they did). Rarely if ever have I found their insights about me to be so great as to be worth overruling my own, but before I realized this to be the case I suffered a lot of injury by way of errant guidance and pharmacology. (I also think that the idea that telling a psych patient about their diagnostic profile is somehow a blanketly injurious process is an awfully convenient cloak of informational solitude for industry professionals to be able to hide behind. Imagine if your auto mechanic told you not to worry what was wrong with your car, that he knew how to take care of it, and by the way here's the bill...)

I try to continue sharing the benefit of my hard-earned experiences and perspective with others, as I heartily wish that I'd had broader knowledge and a significantly less trusting outlook before I was hurt even while in my most vulnerable state. Maybe then I might actually have had a chance at acquiring help that was specific to my real needs, instead of what was most convenient and profitable for my providers to deliver.

I guess I'm a little mad. In my defense, it's the emotion I have the most trouble accessing. I should be quite a bit madder.