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Originally Posted by kamikazebaby
PK, these things are very true, which just makes life harder to deal with (and relationships even more terrifying). I have worried for you before because of your dependence on only one person. Maybe with some anxiety medication and friends you can reach out to, it will help to balance things out.
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The only friends I have are online. I haven't had actual friends in real life for 5 years because I drifted away from all but one childhood friend when I was 13 due to abuse and trauma within my family. I had a falling out with my last friend when I was 15, and reached out to almost no one in high school, then moved away to NYC with my boyfriend 2 years ago. I need physical friends but I'm not even capable of going places alone because of my anxiety, and my boyfriend is not available to take me places very often because of his schedule. He also doesn't ever hang out with his friends because he's too busy and he's the type of person who becomes pretty distant from people if he hasn't spoken to them in a while. They're also busy themselves. It all feels so hopeless...