Don't really know what's going on or why I am feeling this way. But I truly feel like ****. I'm really trying to hold it together and keep going but it is so hard right now.

The only way I feel I can get through this day is by getting drunk and self harming. Yes, I know, not good coping mechanisms. But nothing else is working. And I know in the long run it will just make things worse, but I need some way to release some of this pressure. I need to calm things down a bit.



I just can't do this anymore