This has never happened. I'm not even sure what happened.
Had a session yesterday and we talked about my biggest fear in life (read last few threads). Also in my last few threads I wrote that I sent my T a long email about something that was going on and I needed help with because it was taking over my life. So we discussed that then there was a pause/silence. I wasn't looking at T so I lifted my head up and she was crying. Like not sobbing or anything but teary eyed/using tissues/sniffles. Then she said that she's sorry and it's her fault I feel this way, and it felt like my heart just dropped into my stomach. I said please dont say that (at this point I almost cried) and said it's mostly my fault for not doing the homework you assigned. Then we just agreed that it's both our faults. I have never seen this from my T (been going for a year). I'm not sure if it's because T didn't know how much I was hurting until I sent the email but she was a million times more sympathetic yesterday than any other session I've ever had. At one point I almost started to cry and that was the closest I've come to crying but I just looked away because I came home and cried for 5 hours straight. It was a weird session to be honest. At one point I was uncomfortable talking about something and asked if I could write it down and my T was so excited and said it was a good first step.
Ive never seen my T cry/ be so sympathetic in a session before like I did yesterday.
Anyone ever had a similar experience?
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