Oh if thats what we are talking about, I do that ALL OF THE TIME. "Ive said too much, they are gonna go away like everyone else"...did it last night actually until 3:30am. Did that too my therapist for about 3 yrs, sorta 'testing" him to see if he was gonna end the sessions like 4 other free therapist and also 'tested' him about seduction as i did the 4 others where 2 of the 4 acted on it.

Fear of abandonment rule my thoughts. And i think it makes it worse because its partely from reality, my entirity of my family left because i told the truth, to them im a "crazy liar".

Bleh!