I'm not feeling too fragile or anything, I'm not feeling overly emotional about it, it's just a weird urge I have, normally I would be agitated by the thoughts but they just seem to be there & happen in a kind of dissociated, calm way atm. I hope it stays that way or they stop completely.

I dont know that I have a trauma as such, I don't think I've actually experienced anything you could call a trauma. Not a severe trauma anyway. So I'm not sure.

It's just something my brain is doing, now from what I've been learning there must be a psychological reason for this, it's not necessarily a brain chemistry problem, perhaps it's abit of both? I'm not sure what I have been suppressing though?!

Also I'm sorry to hear you have been experiencing this too, it's unnerving.