Sorry you have to wait so long!

4 weeks feels like an eternity. It will come one day or hour at a time.... You CAN do it.

There is a list of helplines in a sticky thread at the top of this forum.
Please phone a suicide helpline or any other support line in your area. That is what they are there for!

I make use of the U.K. Samaritans and they have helped me through a lot. A friend of mine even had one of them talk to her all night until she felt safe enough to go to sleep. They were pleased to do it and even arranged for someone to call later to see if she was ok.

Whatever they offer, it's worth it to help through the next weeks. YOU are worth it, you DESERVE it.

I hope you find support to make it through this nightmare. And keep posting here. People here do understand and want the best for you.