Well if trauma is relative then perhaps an experience I had at work once has been somewhat of a trauma for me. I was a new nurse in a specialty area (recovery) with minimal support at the time, in a very quiet private hospital when the patient I was caring for suddenly ruptured her aorta, 14 hours later & the patient survived but I think about it alot & its still very upsetting even though it couldn't have had a better outcome. It has made me question my abilities & feel always undertrained/undereducated for the role. It's not really a personally trauma but it makes me anxious at work & I think the stress was intensifying negative moods & cycling.

Great suggestion to track specific symptoms daily as I've only been charting mood as a whole & thats difficult if your not really sure how you feel haha.

I agree that the stelazine is probably working. I have felt a change overall in my feelings toward life in general, it's subtle but significant to me. So now the hard work, therapy & challenging my silly thoughts! It's awesome to feel like things might be turning around finally. I'm feeling ready to go back to work soon. I hope this lasts haha, it's a different feeling from the hypomanic switch, I'm not bouncing around like a moron.

So appreciate all your input guys.