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Old Feb 18, 2016, 08:15 PM
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I understand that the hospital could have diagnosed me with depression. But I have a bipolar diagnosis that is very well-established and for very good reason. It is not up for debate; it might have been 15 years ago but by now we know.

I don't have psychotic depressions; I have definite mixed episodes and have for years. ADs make me tremendously manic and I get manic on my own. I cycle frequently and my drs. know me well. I know mysel well. They will laugh to hear that this diagnosis was given after what I've been through over many years. I am very, very, very bipolar which really struck me as humorous when I posted this. There is no way to explain much of what I have experienced it the last 25 years without bipolar. I think the people who know me on here probably can smile at this diagnosis b/c they've been here through months of uncontrolled bipolar with me.

And this hospitalization was not the time for diagnostics. I went in because I had to get off a very high dose of Seroquel and go onto another AP. My brain was a mess as was I. This wasn't a diagnostic stay nor could they have really diagnosed much since I was being made much sicker for a while by what I was going through and I was also pretty heavily sedated through about a week of it. I suspect that a resident who'd never been through this particular situation before saw that I spent all my time curled up in bed, often just staring at walls for a number of days while my brain was re-setting (and b/c I was on a lot o meds for anxiety and changing to the new AP), and thought it looked like depression. Which it did, just bipolar depression. And then, like I said, I think he put down the wrong code since the codes are so new to everyone.

Whatever, it's just funny to think anyone could know me and not realize I'm bipolar.
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