I am going to assume that you know ythat our symptoms are those of OCD - or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder .

I looked around the web for some info OCD and medications. This site by a doc at Harvard seems the most straight forward. Obsessive Compulsive Foundation

I think that you'll want to read more on OCD and consider seeing a therapist to talk about additional help beyond just meds. This doesn't mean you're "nuts" - its just means you need some help getting past this issue of worrying about AIDS so that you can begin to enjoy your life again.

If you need help with finding a therapist, etc., let us know. People here have lots of experience with that process.

Good luck. emmy