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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow
That's why I would not have done what I did the last 2 weeks anywhere but the hospital---I had a lot of meds at my discretion in whatever dose I needed that particular moment and more meds were available if it got worse. I was physically sick for a day or so and then it got worse mentally but I was given meds that let me sleep through most of it. If I had tried at home I would have wound up IP (which was what my pdoc and I discussed; trying it at home and risking hospitalization or doing it faster and with meds to help a nursing station away; we decided to just do it IP b/c I wasn't going to make it through the lengthy withdrawl OP.)
I don't think you could get an AD to work fast enough to help much at this point. I'm also curious; if it is the coming off the stimulants that is the problem why an AD? It seems like you'd want something calming. I've had great experiences with using gabapentin and hydroxyzine PRN through my changes. Gabapentin works on the same receptors as klonopin without the addictive potential and when we got the dose right it has really made a huge difference in what I've experienced, what I was able to sleep through and how I feel now (and still am taking a bunch at night and PRN in the day but so far I've been too exhausted to need it then.)
I know the hospital sucks but it might suck less with the ability to give you meds that help without raising further issues and with the ability to raise/lower doses rapidly.
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I said I'd go to the main hospital for IVs for a rapid detox but they wouldn't do that. I just hate IP beds man they are the worst. They give you sheets and I'm freezing. The IP I'd go to probably wouldn't give me much of anything for comfort. Besides my tolerance for ativan is so high right now it would be useless. I asked for a AD because phetamine abuse depletes dopamine big time. So the come down is real bad. I know that wellbutrin and Effexor raises dopamine so that's what I want. I have like three bottles of wellbutrin if this dr will just give me the ok over the phone but I know he'll just tell me to go to IP. I called my dad. Cried to him. All he said was "yea all those bipolar meds blah blah". He wants me to go over there and stay. But I just want to cry alone. I don't know I'm really weird about being away from my own home. But this weekend both my bf's small kids will be here. I might have to leave then. I had one yesterday and all I did was cry in front of him. I tucked him into bed and said "hey buddy even though I'm sad you made me feel better ok?" All I want to do is cry and chain smoke. Well that's all I am doing. I'm dizzy from not eating but I just don't have the strength to make anything now. And once I get out of bed, my skin is instantly cold. It almost hurts. This is just the beginning. Once the suboxone withdrawal kicks in I'll be too bad to even pick up this phone. That's one WD I never fully made it through. I didn't even tell my pdoc about that one yesterday. But I figure now that I don't have a job I mine as well get this over with. I have Tylenol 4s for when I can't take it anymore. I've been saving those puppies for this for a loooong time now. I stopped crying for now. Thank god.
Detoxing at home from all psych meds at the moment because of self admitted abuse. Doctors orders and then new cocktail. Just being honest.
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