Not really sure what to say, except it's really been a hard day!!!

I've tried to connect with the part of me that makes my hands and feet feel like electricity. There is this overwhelming feeling that "I've done something wrong!" I can't get past that! It has taken me way. I'm walking through this night like I'm watching someone else do it. My family keeps asking me if I'm ok. YES!! I'm fine!!! I want to scream that at them! I don't .

I've been married for 28 years. I've never felt so apart from him. He says that he wants to understand, but he doesn't have the capacity. I've tried to talk to him about what I remember and what I don't. He just feels like I'm blaming him and I get the angry response, which just sends me further away. It seems like a no win.

I want to get in my car, by myself, and drive until it runs out of gas. I don't really care where that winds up being. I think that may be anger. Not really sure.

Thank you for hearing me!!!