This is a hard question. It's a bit embarrassing and shameful also because so many people fought through their illness and accomplished great things. I'll try this but I may not post it. No, I can't... not the details. That hurts too much. I'll just say this. I lost my dream because of it. I got little tastes of the dream during the up times. Really just a cheap, tawdry version of it. It really isn't something I'd like to contemplate in depth. I'd just feel bitter and it would end up sounding like sour grapes and egotistical "what should have beens." I think that as another poster did, I'll just say that whatever else MI did, it may have made me a better person.