Hi, my names is uneccary for this as it may compromise me, but they reason why I am posting here because I have a serious issue that I need to get opinion and answers on. My serious issue is that I am a zoophile well or I would be called one. From the start of my life I had loved animals to the point where I wouldn't kill a bug, well you see that would be normal for any child but my fascination with animals of all kinds grew deeper as I got older. First when I was 9 my favorite movie was lion king 2, the one with kovu and kiara, well so I love it and before I would goto bed I would imagine me as kovu and raising a family of cubs with kiara despite them being lion, but at this time had no ideal what sex was so I wasn't to concerned by the ideal. To shorten this I will say I had small urges and feelings to animals though my stuff that can be considered curiosity, but then 2 years ago I discovered beastiality and at first I was weirded out by the act and then turned on by it, but to behonest the only reason searched animal sex was because I already starting to fantasize about animals in a sexaul way. Well anyways I kept looking at the porn and eventually masturbaiting to it. I felt wrong, dirty and most of all confused as to why I did so I went to my friends and asked them was it normal and obviously they made fun of me and it hurt so I tried hiding it and constantly fighting it, but at first it was easy and then it got harder when I started hanging around my families dogs, I would have a hard time while petting them to not 'accidentally' touch them in the genitals. I spent a good year and a half fighting it but I thought I had completely forgot when I decided to relax and have some personal time not knowing I didn't close the door all the way and boom came in my brothers dog all up in my junk licking away I tried to stop him but he pushed back against my effort and let me tell you I aint strong in anyways so trying to push him was the most difficult thing and eventually I gave in and let him do what she wanted not wanting to piss him off. After the event I became extremely confused and distraught because I had to admit I enjoyed it he got me all exaughted (BTW I am a guy if I didn't mention) and that was the first actually expirence with a dog, I like to called a happy molestation. I am making this sound good well I personally at this point believe that zoophilla is okay but I could bemwrong, but what I havnt said is that I tried to change and when I did it left some pretty nasty mental scars, I gave myself depression thinking no one would like me, I became distant from my family, I attempted suicide but could not go though with it because I had friends who cared for me, I cut and all of this was because I forced myself thinking it was wrong but should I try again because I ain't normal or should I be content with what I am and live with it what's your thought on this.